About time & change

July 29, 2015

Yesterday Facebook reminded me that exactly two years ago I was standing on top of the Rockefeller Center in NYC enjoying the view over the Big Apple at night. It was one of my last days in New York, a city I fell in love with, a place where I met incredible people and where I can’t wait to go back to soon! Two years… Two years and I can’t say that I’ve changed much since then. Today, as I was driving home from work and I was wondering whether that was a good or a bad thing. Back when I booked my trip in November 2012, I remember my dad saying ‘I don’t think you’ll actually go by yourself’ and I just said ‘you’ll see’. I just had the feeling that I needed to get out. I didn’t pass my first year at uni in Brussels and my four and a half year relationship – my first love – came to an end. In July 2013 I boarded the plane in Brussels and went to NYC on my own for four weeks; I did it (and my dad was really proud haha). Isn’t it crazy how time flies? Sitting here, writing this article, reflecting on the last two years; they just went by too fast. The only noticeable change is that since then, I’ve been successful at university – I got my bachelor’s degree in Human and Social Sciences a few weeks ago.

Even though I might not have changed much – I still look a lot like I did back on the Top of the Rock – I have grown in many ways over those last two years. As you might know, I haven’t had the easiest time regarding my health, so what I’ve learned is that my body can endure a lot and that it is actually a lot stronger than I thought.

As for my love life, I’ve been single this entire time. It took quite some time to get back on my feet after my relationship and for the longest time, I wasn’t ready to commit to something/someone new. Being single in Luxembourg isn’t easy though… I love Luxembourg, I do, but one of the biggest disadvantages of living in such a small place is that people know each other, or at least know someone who knows someone. You often can’t get involved with a guy because he’s a former ex of one of your friends or he is friends with the someone you’ve dated before. All I’m saying is that it isn’t easy to find your better half in Luxembourg these days. However, I’m able to say that being single has helped me to get a clearer view of what I want and what I don’t want in a relationship, or in my life in general. I think it’s important to know that you’re okay by yourself, that you don’t need someone to feel alright. I think it’s only when you realise this, that you’re ready to commit again. And so now I wouldn’t mind sharing my memories with that one special someone again.

Thus, I guess ‘change’ is the wrong word, I wouldn’t say that I’ve changed all that much, but I’ve grown and I’ve learned a lot and that’s what life is all about. I’m looking forward to what’s coming my way when I start my master’s degree in Multilingual Communication in September and having a handful of new ideas for the blog & maybe even returning to the city that helped me move on 2 years ago, NY<3

 

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