Change

January 25, 2015
Over the last couple of days I’ve been cleaning up my photo library on my MacBook. (The students amongst you may relate to looking through old pictures, or doing all imaginable things for that matter, when all we were supposed to do was studying). My exams are finally over and I have a few free days before the second semester is starting which I’ll be spending at home. Going through those pictures I got to see how much my life has changed in the last couple of years. There’s this one quote by C.S Lewis (fact about me: I’m a huge sucker for quotes) saying: ”Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back, everything is different”. Right now I can strongly relate to this saying because even though I was aware of the a lot of the factors that have changed, I just somehow hadn’t gotten the full picture. Until now. There are people who are no longer part of my life who once had bigger or smaller roles in it, depending on the person. But what can I say? Life’s not always going the way we plan for it to and I guess that’s a good thing. I for one, am a strong believer that everything happens for a reason and so I am sure that I wouldn’t be the person who I am today without the harder moments, the tasks I had to manage or the people I had to let go. I am not sad about those changes because it’s through them that you learn who your true friends are, the ones that will always be by your side, no matter what. And also I got to meet a lot of new people, people who I’ve grown really close to and who I wouldn’t wanna miss no more. I think that change is the only constant in our lives and it’s up to us how we’re gonna live it; we can either cling to the the past with all its memories or we can just go with it, and enjoy what life has to offer. I don’t usually make new year’s resolutions and basically this isn’t one as 2015 is just a start, but from now on I will try to live a lot more in the moment, don’t dwell over the past and accept things as they are. I am very very grateful for all the memories I’ve made so far, the good and bad ones because they’ve shaped who I am today. I am a lot stronger, a little bit more self-confident and a lot less starry-eyed than I was 4 years ago. 
I know this is a bit of a random post, but you might remember me telling you a few months back that I wanted to make the blog a little bit more personal. So here I am… This is me working on the blog, and on myself.

me in 2011, one of my favourite pictures from that time

Wärend deenen leschten Deeg zu Bréissel hun ech d’Fotoen op mengem Laptop e bessen geraumt. Ech mengen all Student wess wéi et ass wann een alles mecht ausser léiren, opschon een unsech just daat soll maachen während der Examenszait. Ech hat en Samschdeg -no gefillten 10 Wochen- main leschten Examen an hun lo e puer Deeg frai ier daat nait Semester ungeet. Wei ech duerch all di mi aal Fotoen gaang sin, as mer opgefall wéivill main Leewen sech dach awer iwer dei lescht Joeren verännert huet. Do gett et een Sproch fun C.S Lewis mat deem ech mech am Moment gudd kann identifizeiren (an deen ech eech net op letzeboiesch waert iwersetzen, well ech fannen dann klengt en direkt vill manner gudd) ”Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back, everything is different”. Unsech sen ech mer deenen groussen Changementer bewosst, mee iergendwei hun ech awer bis lo ni sou gesinn wéi wait sech dach vill Sachen verännert hun. Et gin Lait déi virun e puer Joer nach eng mei oder manner grouss Roll an mengem Liewen haaten -et haenkt natierlech fun der Persoun of- déi awer lo keen Deel mei dovunner sin. Ech wees daat as ganz normal, well d’Leewen geet lang net emmer sou wéi een sech et denkt oder wéi een et gaeren haett. Daat ass awer och ganz ok sou. Ech gleewen anzweschent fest drun, dass alles aus iergendengem Grond geschitt an dowéint sen ech mer och ganz secher dass ech haud net déi Persoun waer déi ech sin ouni dei méi schwéier Momenter, ouni di Situatiounen déi ech bewältegt hun an ouni déi Lait dei ech goen geloss hun. Ech sen net traureg iwer des Changementer well duerch si hun ech geléiert ween meng richteg Koleegen sin, déi déi emmer do sin, ganz egal wat geschitt. Ech hun awer och di letzt Joer vill nai Lait kennen geléiert wouvuner ech der vill net mei wéilt messen! Ech denken aist Leewen besteet aus Changementer an et ass un ais selwer ze decideieren wéi een mat hinnen well emgoen; et kann een sech un der Vergangenheet an un all den Erennerungen unhaalen, oder et kann een am Moment leewen an gespaant sin waat als nächst op een duer kennt. Normalerweis maachen ech keng Naijoers-resolutiounen (ech gleewen net dorunner) an unsech ass dest och keng, well 2015 soll just en Ufank sin, mee ab elo waert ech probéiren mei am Hai an Elo ze leewen an mer net iwwer alles waat geschitt ass souvill Gedanken ze maachen. Ech sin dankbar fier all d’Erennerungen déi ech hun, déi gudd wéi och déi manner gudd, well si hun mech zu deem gemach waat ech haud sin. Ech sin vill mei staark, e bessen mei selbstbewosst an vill manner naiv wéi ech et nach firun 4 Joer war. 
Dest as flait e bessen een mei ‘random’ Post, mee flait erennert der eech wéi ech firun e puer Méint soot dass ech de Blog e bessen méi perséinlech wéilt gestallten. Ma hai sin ech… amgang un mengem Blog an och un mier ze schaffen.

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2 Comments

  • Reply KaoriAnne KARINA January 25, 2015 at 9:10 pm

    Brussels wouldn't have been the same if you hadn't reached out to me. I have so many wonderful memories with you. THANK YOU ❤

    I'm so sad that ever since I went back to the UK I haven't been able to see you as much but hopefully that will all change soon!

  • Reply KaoriAnne KARINA January 25, 2015 at 9:10 pm

    Brussels wouldn't have been the same if you hadn't reached out to me. I have so many wonderful memories with you. THANK YOU ❤

    I'm so sad that ever since I went back to the UK I haven't been able to see you as much but hopefully that will all change soon!

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